2004-12-08 - 8:50 p.m. - misery

I had told my sister that I was planning on skipping all those stages of grief; instead, I had a ticket for the express train to acceptance. I thought I might even be on that train until tonight when my so-called express train hit a wall.

I’m sorry…I didn’t buy a ticket for the denial train…I didn’t even know I was on that train…no, I don’t want another train ticket… I think I’ll just walk along the tracks and hope that the light ahead will crush my misery…scatter it like fine particles of dust dancing in the rays of the rising sun.

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