2003-06-27 - 11:02 p.m. - summer has begun

Things are a little bit less melancholy today....actually a lot less. First of all, the PMS has ended - thus the dramatic bout of tears last night. Secondly, I have officially started summer today. No more extended contract time at school that took up last week's first "week off", and no more work shops that occupied me 3 out of the five days of this work week.

"I'm free - to do what I want, any ol' time..."

So what did I do today? Laundry, first, since I'll be heading East on Mon. and needed clean underwear. Then I went to my chiropractic appt. since I've been having lower back pain for the past 2 weeks - getting older sucks as far as the physical aspects - the wisdom is great, though. I wish I could comment on the sex, but it's been so long, I can't really remember. My hormones are firing though, but I'm tired of the solo acts.

Before my chiropractic appt., I had a massage at the same office. It's all covered under the same co-pay for my insurance. I had a woman today and she was good but not as good as Wed. when I had Richard. He was AWESOME. I would have asked him to marry me if my gay-dar wasn't bleeping constantly. He gave me the best 1/2 hour massage I have ever gotten - he got right into the back muscles that were tight, and I finally felt some relief from the pain I've been having. Just having someone run their hands up and down my back is therapeutic for me.

In any case, I had a massage today, was cracked up by my chiropractic, and then spent the rest of the afternoon reading book 4 of the Harry Potter series. Yes, I'm behind a book, but it's still fun to be involved with a Harry Potter novel. Sitting aggravates my back so I simply laid (lay??? - I never did get those verbs right!) on my floor and read all afternoon.

BUT, before I did that, I had to run a couple of errands downtown. Given that I was within walking distance of he who must not be named, (no, not Voldemort - just my scarlet letter A dude), I stopped by his performance space and said hello. I had a nice talk with him, and that just made my day. I'm never quite sure if he's in the mood for talking when he's performing (as a statue), but today, after shaking my hand, he relaxed his pose and became human again. He was trying to tell me that my necklace was backwards, but I was misunderstanding him and thinking that my shirt was on backwards - which wouldn't have surprising given that I've worn shirts inside out before! He chuckled as I was trying to sort things out, and I can't say whether or not I've heard him laugh before, but I really liked it. (gosh, am i'm acting like a junior high student or what?!) We chatted for a while and then he said he was going on a lunch break. I would have joined him, but he didn't invite me, and my parking meter was running out. So we walked part of the way together, chatting, and then I turned to make my way to my car and he continued on to go to his lunch spot. Part of me was thinking, I should have joined him, and the other part of me was thinking, leave him alone....he's married after all and nothing can come of it - only in your fantasies. In my fantasy, we kissed goodbye and had a long embrace. Yes, I'm a Pisces...."I'm a day dream believer..."

This evening I had a very nice meal at a wonderful vegetarian restaurant, La Vita Cafe, and then topped it off with a couple of lemon drops at my friend's house. We sat and chatted on his porch and enjoyed the beautiful summer evening.

Summer has begun, I'm still in love with a married man, but I feel fine.....

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