2003-06-25 - 11:07 p.m. - listening for the falls

there's much i've been wanting to say, but it seems stuck beneath the surface, and words are not appearing... my life lately....sometimes it seems i've been drowning in happiness with fulfilling moments that just make me so thankful to be alive...other times it seems like i've been drowning in loneliness, with no one to hear my screams beneath the waves.

i keep reading this Mary Oliver poem and hoping that one day soon i might start hearing the waterfalls....

"You are young. So you know everything. You leap into the boat and begin rowing. But, listen to me. Without fanfare, without embarrassment, without any doubt, I talk directly to your soul. Listen to me. Lift the oars from the water, let your arms rest, and your heart, and your heart's little intelligence, and listen to me. There is life without love. It is not worth a bent penny, or a scuffed shoe. It is not worth the body of a dead dog nine days unburied. When you hear, a mile away and still out of sight, the churn of the water as it begins to swirl and roil, fretting around the sharp rocks - when you hear that unmistakeable pounding - when you feel the mist on your mouth and sense ahead the embattlement, the long falls plunging and steaming - then row, row for your life toward it."

(Mary Oliver - from "West Wind")

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